Loving these...

Someday I'll wish upon a star.. And wake up where the clouds are far.. Behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops.. Away above the chimney tops.. That's where you'll find me.

And sometimes when we touch.. The honesty's too much.. And I have to close my eyes and hide.. I wanna hold you til I die.. Til we both break down and cry.. I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides..

Relations

Family. Career. Friends. Money. Men.

Love. Passion. Care. Needs. Wants.

Always. No choice. Sometimes. Maybe. Why not?

Support. Confident. Sweet. Not everything. Evil.

Some things are better left unsaid.

I am a chatterbox.
I lied when I said that I'm tired of talking.

God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth for a reason. Which is to listen more and talk less.
Listen more. I told myself that, but I just couldn't.

I always talk.
Once the red button is triggered, I could talk for hours or days.

I talk. Talk at the wrong time, wrong occassion, wrong place.
How shameful, when things could not turn back because of what you have said.
How sad, when things are broken because of you.

I told smokers to quit smoking, cos it hurts your lungs.
I told drinkers to quit drinking, cos it hurts your livers.
I should quit talking, cos it hurts my heart.
All the time.

Your annoyances, caused by my destructive words.
Your negligence, caused by my obsessiveness, possessiveness and high expectations.
So sorry. To whom/those who I have hurted in any ways before.

Painful experiences.
Have built who I am today.
Also lead to fear, illness and cold.
Disappointment and frustrations.

Some things are better left unsaid.
So I take it all on my own.
I cry. I laugh.
I see. I learn.
I read. I write.

Till the fear in me subsides.
Louise

Insomnia...

This is not the first time that i woke up in the middle of the night.. and cant go back to sleeeeeeep...
oh.. insomnia.. geez... and i'm hungry now........ :(